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Mistress
Push it back til you see
what is left of you and me
everything we wanna be
abomination
Someone else, someone new
never clear, never true
in the fall of misery
disintegration
And I taste once again
sweet remembrance of the pain
when I saw you walk away
with the morning you are gone
and to think youre the one
leaving me to drown alone
I wont decieve you
and i stand on the street 
with the fresh taste of defeat
locked inside a heart of stone
I cant belive you
Just before the storm is gone youre swept away
another day you would have stayed
all it seems beyond decay just like me
just before the storm is gone youre swept away
another day i would have strayed
all it seems beyond decay just like me
Never more, its the truth
used to be me, now its you
and the memories fade away
Still the same rules as before
what I want is to endure
all the things that move me more
my delusion
competition, all a game
made for me, tastes of shame
makes me feel just like a whore
in conclusion
Just before the storm is gone youre swept away
another day you would have stayed
all it seems beyond decay just like me
just before the storm is gone youre swept away
another day i would have strayed
all it seems beyond decay just like me
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Carinou

I was made for almost anyone
but you you were made for me
I can´t ask you to understand
you´re where I wanna be
I never thought I´d see you
The way I see you now
I never thought I´d see you
The way I see you now
You´re probably on your way
there´s nothing I can say
to make you wanna stay
linger on with me
I never thought I´d see you
The way I see you now
I never thought I´d see you
The way I see you now
You think I see right through you
I wonder who sees right through who
There´s nothing I can do
blindly in love with you
I never thought I´d see you
The way I see you now
I never thought I´d see you
The way I see you now
(ad nauseum)

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Nexus
I may not seem like much to you, but I am everything to me.
I may not listen well, and may not understand
but all lives have a nexus, and in my own I call it me 
I´m still alive, but I wonder where i´ll be when im alone and sit here wating
Waiting for the stars to burn out, screen to fade, as if I even care.
Where you go, where you´ve been, or what you do...
Hoping that you´ll show up here again, as something new,
something real, that I can feel, something true.
But you will never happen, you will never happen to me...
(Youre nothing but a fading line on screen ive seen)
It doesnt have a voice, It doesnt have a face, It doesnt even have
the right to be so wonderful to me
I´m still alive, but I wonder where i´ll be when im alone and sit here wating
Waiting for the stars to burn out, screen to fade, as if I even care.
Where you go, where you´ve been, or what you do...
Hoping that you´ll show up here again, as something new,
something real, that I can feel, something true.
And if i leave you waiting, and if i leave you hoping
will you then go away?
Or will you creep into your shell, and just pretend it never was?
Or will you tell a story too and we can both pretend we're free 
I´m still alive, but I wonder where i´ll be when im alone and sit here wating
Waiting for the stars to burn out, screen to fade, as if I even care.
Where you go, where you´ve been, or what you do...
Hoping that you´ll show up here again, as something new,
something real, that I can feel, something true.
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Alone

Hello friend 
Hello friend
All I want is just to see you again
It´s been a while
A while since then
The day I a saw a living angel descend
All I want is you to hold my hand
Stop the sand from running out again
Hello friend 
Hello friend
All I want is just to see you again
Tell me now
Tell me when
When will you ever touch me again
All I want is you to hold my hand
Stop the sand from running out again

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Chris
You thought that everything I said was really worth beliving in
You thought that all I did was true
And still you nag about that I´m the only one decieving
Who told the lies? me or you?
So please recap it to yourself, coz I dont wanna hear it
The contemplations that you do...
You waste the time of everyone, just to bring everybody down
Why wont you tell me something new?
And if your life is such a bore why won´t you fucking end it now
Coz I have better things to do.
So please recap it to yourself, nobody wants to listen
just be up front and we´ll be through
If you wanna tell me anything you wanna do well its on sale
I´m on sale for you.
Its a buyers market baby, anything for you, and i´ll make sure
you´ll belive it too.
You leave a bitter aftertaste, another person gone to waste
And you just never really see.
You talk a lot and make plans for the future 
But why do you have to tell me?
And now you´ve wasted yet another day on feeling sorry for
the person that you´ll never be.
You push away from all the chances just because you´re so afraid
of maybe someday being free.
And just by looking I can tell you just want to be someone else
I pray and hope that it´s not me.
So please recap it to yourself, coz i don´t wanna hear it.
I didnt ask for this you see.
If you wanna tell me anything you wanna do well its on sale
I´m on sale for you.
Its a buyers market baby, anything for you, and i´ll make sure
you´ll belive it too.
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Whore

Splitting headache seventeen thousand a.m
newborn sunlight crawling through the crack of dawn
It´s always me who ends up brushing off the pain
so pathetic eating cornflakes off the floor
And it´s you I wanna see all the things you wanna be
all the lies that make me wonder why you´re still a memory
now it´s been a while for me and I doubt that you can see
that I´m not the one to hide and let you throw away your dreams
not for me
So we curl up in the sofa for while
listening to the boiling hell outside the door
And tomorrow we will still be sitting here
saying all the things already said before
And it´s you I wanna see all the things you wanna be
all the lies that make me wonder why you´re still a memory
now it´s been a while for me and I doubt that you can see
that I´m not the one to hide and let you throw away your dreams
not for me
There was always some one else to save the day
someone I could trust to bring me back again
but eventually that someone walks away
and I´m left alone to clean the dried up stains
And it´s you I wanna see all the things you wanna be
all the lies that make me wonder why you´re still a memory
now it´s been a while for me and I doubt that you can see
that I´m not the one to hide and let you throw away your dreams
not for me
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